"Mama, I just want to be normal."
Those are the words I heard from this little darling early this morning.
You see, she has been dealing with belly issues her entire life.
And she had been unable to go to the bathroom for several days.
She takes a medicine that helps her but it was not working.
The longer she goes without going, the more worked up she gets, which does not help.
She gets worked up because she is concerned that she will need to
have an enema administered and she does not care for that, to say the least.
So, yesterday after several attempts she went to bed without being able to go.
She begged us to give her more time and told us she would go "tomorrow."
We were fine giving her more time and prayed that "tomorrow" she would be able to go.
This morning she came down for breakfast and soon was experiencing
severe belly cramps.
She laid down on the sofa and I went to her to rub her back.
She began to cry and then sob and then she said,
"Mama, I just want to be normal."
Isn't that our cry, so often?
My heart broke a little and then my mind scrambled,
trying to think of what I could share with her that
would be of some encouragement.
"Katrina, I know this is not something you chose for yourself.
It is not something Papa and I chose for you either.
But, we do know this: God is allowing it, and
therefore we KNOW that it will be for your good.
He will use this to teach you something that you could not have learned otherwise."
I realize this is a very abstract concept for her to grasp and yet
we believe in sowing into our children seeds of truth that will take root
even at their young ages and harvest a spirit and
attitude of uprightness and thanksgiving.
Besides, I was not only saying it to her.
I was saying it to myself.
I need to hear those words too.
"This is for your good, Kristina.
Remember, your good and My glory are connected."
Shortly after sharing this teachable moment,
Katrina needed to use the bathroom.
As I followed her I heard her whisper to her Lord,
"God, PLEASE, PLEASE let me go."
Again, my heart broke a little and I echoed her prayer.
Praise be to God that she was able to go.
She cried and cried.
Tears of pain and tears of joy.
We returned to the sofa and as I again stroked her back we prayed
a prayer of thanksgiving together.
Lord, help us to remember that every.single.thing. we experience
must pass through Your hand first.
Help us to trust You completely, even in the "dailies."
Help Pancho and I to continue to sow seeds of righteousness into
Katrina and Samuel.




