Bittersweet Memories

Tuesday, February 26th was a bittersweet day for me. It was Katrina's birthday. As many moms as I know reminisce about the day their child/children was/were born. Well, I am no exception.

Katrina was supposed to be a planned C-section. She was frank breech and the doctor planned to "take her" on March 10. My due date was March 14. On February 26, 2006 we went to church in the morning and came home for lunch. We went to my parents so my dad could cut Panchito's hair. I took strawberry shortcake for a treat. We came home and Panchito was working on the computer while I was working on the laptop and watching the finale of Dancing with the Stars. It was about 7:30 PM.

All of a sudden I felt a "BLOOP." Literally it felt like that word sounds, if you can imagine feeling how a word sounds... I jumped up and ran into the bathroom. My pants were soaking wet. I sat down on the toilet and water was just running out of me. I was OVERJOYED! I had been praying since we found out we were having a C-section that my water would break so that I could experience some of "real" labor. I called Panchito and he began frantically getting our things into the car. We started calling family and friends and doctors to inform them that we were having the baby.

It was such an emotional time. We were THRILLED and SCARED and HYPER and WILD and ANXIOUS. We went to the hospital and were admitted. Our OB wanted to deliver the baby so we had called him and he was on his way. I changed into the gown and we decided in the bathroom that if we had a girl we would name her Katrina Suzanne. We had waffled on the middle name so we thought we better make a decision. If it was a boy we were going to name him Samuel David (pronounced with a Spanish accent).

Because Katrina was still in a frank breech position they prepped me for a C-section. Panchito came into the operating room and was allowed to watch as the doctor "took" our baby out. It was a girl. I cried and cried and cried. It was the BEST moment ever. Both Panchito and I could not believe it. We had a biological child. We were overjoyed with God's faithfulness.

We stayed in the hospital until Thursday when we were released. We came home and began our lives with Katrina Suzanne Durán. The rest is history...

The story is a great one, isn't it? Reliving the emotions is incredible. I even got choked up as I wrote those words in the post. But, the reason it was/is bittersweet is because I wonder, "Will the Lord allow us to experience that again? Will we have a biological child again?" I know His plan is PERFECT and if we don't experience it, it will be for our good and for His glory and yet my heart is trying to surrender, AGAIN.

Not one day goes by when I don't hear Panchito or myself say, "Boy, do I love her? Can you believe we have her?" We are in love with Katrina and are SO thankful for her. "Children are a gift from the Lord" and we are ever-appreciative of the gift He has given to us.